Insight

"He is too intelligent. He sees too clearly and speaks too plainly."
How Winston Smith views Syme, a lucidly thinking intellectual, in Nineteen Eighty-Four

Delays and delays

Surgery scheduled for tomorrow has been cancelled by the anesthesiologist.  In spite of that problematic tissue to be removed and biopsied, internally and externally, putting me under is out of the question.  My other problem, which may require yet another, different surgery, may cause me to die.  Apparently, there's a risk of my windpipe collapsing when the muscles completely relax under anesthesia thanks to the two large growths in my throat.  A couple of times a month I have problems sleeping when the throat swells.  When I fall asleep, I wake up gasping for air, unable to breathe.  Several Ibuprofen later, I get to sleep when the swelling reduces. Further aggravating this is my history of cycling and those pesky spells I get where my heart rate races to 140 bpm for hours to days on end.  That's when the breathing problems get really bad.  The anesthesiologist doesn't want to risk me having a thyroid storm on the table, so elective surgery is out.  He says I have to get clearance from my endocrinologist and surgeon with a special cross section MRI, before I can be put under.  Unfortunately there is ONE endocrinologist in this 80,000 person area in the Blue Cross Blue Shield plan and it takes 2 months to get in.  I'm seeing my other surgeon next week about the needle bopisy for my throat.  I guess I'll have to be awake for that one.  Hope he's a doctor who performs it that way.
UPDATE: The throat biopsy is scheduled for late December. I will be awake for the procedure which also requires the doctor to use ultrasound to locate the 5.2cm (2.04 inches) mass. The 6.2cm (2.44inches) goiter on the other side stays, untouched, and hopefully meds will reduce the size of that. And yes, if you're wondering both are apparent by sight and palpable. I'll be off my anti-inflammatory meds the week before and the week after so I'll have even less use of my bum hand and arm. Crap! Something about possible bleeding into the area which could cause pressure of the trachea or worse, the carotid artery.  In other words, more or the same risk issues. This biopsy will determine cancer or not. It will not rule out surgery, but if it's cancer, then the surgery is definite. As always, it's wait and see.

Shipping Container: Models for galactic colonization

So bear with me while I work through these thoughts
Lately I read John Scalzi's series starting with Old Man's War. I have also been following Lloyd Kahn's blog.  He's also the author of Tiny Homes: Simple Shelter.

So the two worlds (of ideas) have collided and I have been working out a design for shipping containers for use in space colonization.  I admit, I'm a huge fan of Serenity and Firefly and StarGate SG1 and Farscape. So the idea of off world life appeals at a primal frontiersman level.  Of course, I know I'll never see it for several reasons.  Simply put: Financial impracticality, narrow minded creationists in political office, and most importantly-Evolution.  I firmly believe that we won't succede in having colonization for first, second and third generation off world settlements because we evolved separate from the other planets ecosystems.  I could go into a lengthy explanation at this point, but I'll leave you at a starting point: European explorers meet American natives and epidemics follow.  Then go with this book,  1493: Uncovering the New World Columbus Created, and that is merely a launching point for a space ship load of reasons.

But back to the point at hand.  Shipping containers as frontier cabins for off world exploration.
Imagine a shipping container of your stuff.  Now toss in a second container with the water, temperature regulation, and power source for a home on a new planet.  Throw in waste disposal / reuse -afterall we want to incorporate our microbes into the alien environment. Include cooking facilites. Safe shelter to harbor against the elements or threats of harm. Some storage capacity. And voila!  Just the beginnings.  

With doors that open outward at each end, imagine rolling out a water purification system combined with waste water treatment.  On top, solar panels and a wind collection unit for power supplies.  At the other end, a roll out cooking source that houses power units to utilize the solar/wind gathered. 

As these units roll out, the core of stored items become accessible with panels that swing open from the long sides.  These stored items would include collapsible or inflatable furniture, mosquito netting, pots and pans etc. 

The panels of a closed container could be multi layered.  For example, the long side could have a panel which lifts up and becomes a roof for a length long porch/room.  A second panel could then fold down from the opposite direction providing a floor. Built in adjustable braces, like the folding legs of a card table, could provide support. And this could run lengthwise on both sides.

The bottom could be modified to have a one foot support base that would include, among other things, a leveling system based on tire jack hydraulics and pipes and conduits for plumbing and wiring. 

The roof could have an exterior layer which came off in panels with pop up solar panels and a wind channel. The panels could be used to provide doors and sides for the pop out porch rooms.

While this seems to be a rather self contained unit, I think a second unit would be needed to carry all the things a new world settler would need including rations, seed crop, and other necessities.  Perhaps even a few sheep, cows, chickens and pigs could be transported because you'll need protein and eventually new clothes and shoes, etc.

All in all, a crazy thought best saved for science fiction and the hope that Firefly may rise from the ashes for a second series. Nate Fillion says he's all in.

A nice way to look at things


Jose Mujica, the president of Uraguay, gives away 90% of his $12,000.00 a month salary to charity, and is considered the world's poorest president.
"I'm called 'the poorest president', but I don't feel poor. Poor people are those who only work to try to keep an expensive lifestyle, and always want more and more," he says.
"This is a matter of freedom. If you don't have many possessions then you don't need to work all your life like a slave to sustain them, and therefore you have more time for yourself," he says.
When I consider my MIL came from poverty and is always concerned with keeping up with the Jones, I have to say that this guy knows how to live. 

In same interview, it is noted that he made a similar point at the Rio+20 summit:



"We've been talking all afternoon about sustainable development. To get the masses out of poverty.
"But what are we thinking? Do we want the model of development and consumption of the rich countries? I ask you now: what would happen to this planet if Indians would have the same proportion of cars per household than Germans? How much oxygen would we have left?
"Does this planet have enough resources so seven or eight billion can have the same level of consumption and waste that today is seen in rich societies? It is this level of hyper-consumption that is harming our planet.
Regarding other world leaders he says they have, "blind obsession to achieve growth with consumption, as if the contrary would mean the end of the world".
On another interesting note, he is a vegetarian.

Mixed Veggie PULAO

In a medium skillet, add enough oil to lightly coat the bottom.
Add
½ TSP cumin seed
and heat over medium to crackle. Listen for the sound and you'll smell the scent of the cumin seed released at that point. Sometimes tilting the pan so all the oil and spice meet over the heat reduces the chances of burning and shortens cooking time.
Careful not to scorch the oil, so keep heat medium to low until all ingredients are added. 

Add
1 cinnamon stick
4 cloves
8 peppercorns, roughly crushed
1 dried cayenne chili, whole* 
1 carrot, finely diced
Scant ¾ cup frozen peas, rinsed and drained
½ cup canned corn, drained
¼ cup canned green beans, drained
Don't use veg-all mix.  The flavors of veg-all blend together creating THAT flavor- the school lunch veggie mush from hell. This dish is best when individual flavors compliment one another. Fresh veggies are fine, as are fresh frozen, but add extra time to thaw.  You want the spiced oil to coat the veggies. A little oil goes a long way and canned and frozen veggies contain water released when heated and this mixes the flavor throughout.

*Keeping the chili whole will reduce the heat throughout the dish; chop for more flavor. I have a generous supply of dried red cayennes.  Buy on the Mexican food aisle whole in packages or grow your own.  Plant, fertilize, water once, and forget them until the end of summer when the plants start dying with beautiful, crinkly red peppers sun dried to perfection.  Easiest damned veggie I ever grew.  A nice-pack of seedlings has left me with a supply I've used for two years and will have for another two years. Best $3 veggie seedlings ever!

Stir fry together for several minutes.

In a microwavable 2 qt soufflé pan
Add
1 cup long grain basmati rice
4 cardamom pods
1 TSP salt

Measure 3 cups of water
Stir enough water into fry pan to gather the spice and vegetables from the pan.
Add to rice.
Pour remaining water (so that all 3 cups of water will be used)
in with the rice and vegetable mix.

Microwave on high 20 minutes.

Remove the 4 cloves and 4 cardamom pods and the cinnamon stick.  Microwaving seems to leave the spice and veggies in the middle and it's usually easy to find these.  Fluff with fork and find that last little bit of spice if needed. Many Indians leave these spices in, but Westerners seemed overwhelmed by the texture and intensity of whole cloves and cinnamon sticks.  The whole cardamon pods should be removed regardless.
This dish is great served alone as a meal, as a side, or under a sauce or curry.  I recommend my basic raita served cold over this hot rice dish.

This dish is adapted from the recipe for Pulao from
Why did I change it?  To fit my sure fire, never fail microwave rice recipe.
So what did I change? Because my rice recipe uses less rice, I cut all spice and veggies by half as a rule.  I did not include golden raisins or pistachios, two regular contributions to pulao.  I don't like cooked boogers raisins and don't have the unsalted and pricey pistachios. Whereas the original recipe called for 4 chilis, I chose one to suit my children’s palate. In addition, the original called for 6 tablespoons of corn oil.  Vegetable oil is my choice and only enough oil was used to coat the pan.  By keeping the temperature med-low, I was able to fry everything adequately.

NEXT TIME- I recommend a smaller frying pan, deeper, so I can use even less oil.  The end product was slightly too oily with a large frying pan.  An idea would be to add a small amount of the water to cook the carrots and spice. The canned veggies don’t need much cooking.  Perhaps I can further reduce the need for much oil. However, oil is essentail to releasing the flavor and smell of the cumin, and to a lesser extent, the additional spices.  Infusing the oil with the spices adds to the flavor throughout.
UPDATE: I am now using a 6 inch frying pan, 2 inches deep.  I use 1-2 tsp of oil at most. Keeping the heat low, I reach the sizzle and crackle point for the cumin seed and other spices within a couple of minutes, then add the veggies.  Constant stirring is required to coat and warm the veggies.  I've also discovered when I'm short a veggie, the dish still comes together nicely.
REMEMBER- Remove cloves, cinnamon stick and cardamom pods before serving. Give the chili pepper to the heat lover in your family.

My sure fire, never fail microwave rice recipe



1 cup long grain basmati rice**
3 cups cold water
2Qt soufflé pan or glass equivalent
Microwave 20 minutes on high.
Stir and serve.
**This does not work with cheap white rice, which becomes mushy when cooked this way.  10,15, and 20 LB bags of basmati rice are available for sale at import and oriental stores for 50 cents to a $1 a pound. Most are bagged in burlap sacks with plastic bags inside.

Basic Raita


Raita

Heat until crackle
1 tsp Cumin seed
1 tsp Brown/Black Mustard seed
in a pan slightly oiled
This stage requires slow heating at medium temperature.  The seeds will crackle and pop right of the pan; that's the time to turn the heat to low.  Leave it at crackle stage about 4 minutes to release the flavor and infuse the flavor into the oil.  Careful not to burn the oil.  Remove from heat to quickly reduce heat if it gets too hot too quickly.
Cumin Seed

Mix together
1 ¾ cup plain yogurt
1 tsp sugar
a good sprinkling of salt
1 medium cucumber seeded, very finely chopped
1 small Roma tomato, very finely chopped

Add spiced oil and seeds to the yogurt mix
Mix well
Top with a couple tsp of chopped cilantro

Serve cold.

Lentil Dal


Lentil Dal

Cook 1 cup of brown lentils until almost complete

Fry together
1 tsp black mustard seed
1 tsp cumin seed
in a small amount of oil- enough to coat the pan
until crackle

Add
1 tsp ginger paste
1 tsp garlic paste
1 diced onion
½ cup diced tomatoes
Fry until onions are cooked down

Add the fried mix to the lentils
and add
1 tsp cayenne
1 tsp turmeric
1 tsp garam masala
2 tbsp chopped fresh coriander

Cook down until lentils are cooked, adding water as needed.

Finish with 1 tsp salt.

Adapted from The Indian Spice Kitchen: Essential Ingredients and Over 200 Authentic Recipes by Monisha Bharadwaj
Based on spicy yellow lentils recipe

What I'm Reading


What I'm Reading

page 11
"I doubt very much if there's a virgin in the room."
What Archie hears from a boss at the firm employing the 500 women he has surveyed. Publishing date: 1947

So, let's parse what the Christian Men's Defense Network has written.


As a follow up to my previous post http://missannethropesblog.blogspot.com/2012/11/wow-check-this-out.html,let's parse what the Christian Men's Defense Network has written.
My comments and responses are in this font.

"I’ll be the first to admit it.  A couple weeks ago I predicted a Romney win. You and Fox News. I predicted this largely because he played up his alpha cred in the first debate.  But one photo-op on the Jersey Shore with Obama looking tough in a bomber jacket 

Bush in a bomber Jacket
destroyed all that, which is yet another reason sane societies don’t let women get involved in government. Do you mean societies like Afghanistan under the Taliban or Afghanistan now where girls going to school are shot or doused with acid.  Those kind of SANE societies??
Instead, we are looking at four more years of skyrocketing debt (See Clinton surplus turned into Geo W Bush's record breaking debt a la never ending wars for adequate response), stifling regulation (damn that EPA and USDA...  We need more of Mr Burn's nuclear power plants and salmonella. E. Coli for all!!), and the only First Lady who could possibly be bitchy enough to make Hillary Clinton look feminine. Because the bomber jacket argument wasn't good enough we attack behavior and set beauty standards. Besides girls are easier for boys to beat up. Really? If we stoop to that level let's talk pill poppin' Pat Nixon, star chart seeking Nancy "best blowjobs in Hollywood" Reagan, and Marilyn Quayle- I could have mentioned her alone. George Carlin once joked that he " wouldn't fuck her with a stolen dick! "
Ever since the primary debate when George Snuffleupagus seemingly out of nowhere asked Willard Mitt Romney about birth control (he’s Mormon, so I guess his position is “missionary”)Wow! Do Republican men really think sexual position is a form of birth control? Probably. They think rape can be legitimate, we should have known how the leftists in the media and the Obama campaign (redundant, I know) intended to define the campaign  Does this include the No 1 in viewership Fox News? http://stateofthemedia.org/2012/cable-cnn-ends-its-ratings-slide-fox-falls-again/cable-by-the-numbers/. Because on radio ads, on TV, and on the web,Democrats tried to make this election about a single issue:
The right to slut. Have we really forgotten the economy?
Or more precisely, the right to slut without the responsibility of consequences. Takes TWO to tango.  Where are the men in this blame game?  Or are you just victims of your dicks? The famous “gender gap” isn’t really a gap based on gender.  The right overwhelmingly wins older and married women. Yeah, because married women never need contraception OR abortion?? WTF? The “gender gap” should more accurately be called the slut vote.Women make up about 54% of the electorate. YEAH!! And with education, we're getting smarter every day.  Damn that publicly fund education.  Guess Republicans will target public education next.  Oh, wait!  It is very hard to win without winning that segment, or at least losing it only narrowly while winning men big.Can we get a ruler over here? While the right usually wins married women (citation needed, -10 points), the fact is that married women constitute an ever-decreasing share of the female population. Hum? A woman without a man? Ooh, ooh.  Is that like a fish without a bicycle? Now that we can read, go to school, own property, inherit, drive, and all those nifty things, we may not need the transfer of ownership union called marriage.  Is that why some Muslim countries won't let their (see owner's manual) women drive?   Women want to delay marriage as long as possible so they can “have it all,”"Let's see, I want access to healthcare, so that means a job, which requires an education...unless, I get married and my honey takes care of little ole' me." and usually “have it all” means “have as much hot alpha sex as possible without any consequences.”  Again? With whom? Any male responsibility? And thus, less married women and more sluts (not that these two groups are mutually exclusive, per se) Yes, because men can be sluts too.  OH! You meant married sluts, well, yes, studies have shown that husbands are more likely to cheat than wives.  So, yes, men too. And that’s where the Democrats come in.  
Contrary to common belief, the primary reason the Democrats own Do we really want to use the word "own" at this point? the black vote has nothing to do with civil rights.  The Democrats were only partially supportive of civil rights in the 60′s (with southern Democrats advocating “segregation forever”.  Lincoln was a Republican, and Republicans in the House and Senate voted for civil rights legislation in the 60s. So if we're owning up to our past here? Then why don't today's war mongering Republicans seek to relate to Eisenhower? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWiIYW_fBfY Rather, Democrats have won the black vote because the black community is dominated by illegitimacy, and the Democrats are willing to subsidize and support that illegitimacy (as well as provide access to cheap abortions) so as to take away from sluts the consequences of their actions.If that common belief about civil rights is incorrect, we should look the common beliefs held by troglodytes, racists, and misogynists, insteadConsequently, young black people grow up on the dole and not only never realize there might be something wrong with that, but eventually come to believe that’s the way it should be.  The Democrats have won the black vote by first “empowering” single black mothers.  Good thing Republicans keep pushing policies to ensure inner city kids and children in poor areas don't receive adequate, balanced educational funding, providing a true form of empowerment.
This is now beginning to happen in white suburbia, except unlike women in the urban black community, white suburban sluts start from a place of relative wealth and privilege (daddy’s little princess).  Thus, food stamps–and increased rewards for having illegitimate kids while on food stamps–don’t (yet) appeal to them.
So instead Obama appealed to rich white sluts He means educated women with well paying jobs, commonly referred to as "Bitch" in the workplace when we use the same work voice that men use? by forcing someone else (the Catholic church, in this case) to pay for their birth control, So you want the Catholic church to impose their religious beliefs on non-Catholics.  If I wanted that, I'd visit Saudi Arabia, don a burka, and hire a male driver just so I could play tourist and by scaring them about alleged threats to their ability to take advantage of Planned Parenthood’s services (Planned Parenthood being conveniently located where many of the uninsured are- 45 million US citizens at last count in the minority part of town, of course, so as to provide anonymity to visiting white girls whose white girl friends never go over there–except to visit Planned Parenthood themselves)Do we really need to keep reminding you idiots that 90% of PP is non-abortion related? Do you have any idea how much a Mammogram costs ?  How about a PAP smear? And, no, contraception is not abortion. This created a wedge issue in the suburban community that allowed Obama to play more strongly there than he might have if the election ended up purely about the economy or the national debt.
One thing one has to remember about women, especially slutty ones:  They usually don’t make decisions based on reason. Gee, cause women are so emotional, huh? Who's whipping his dick out slinging it around? Getting kinda' emotional with your speechifying. Isn't this coming from a faith based Christian?  Reason? Do you really think you have a leg-or three- to stand on, when dealing with reason?  So all the Obama administration had to do was scare them that Mitt Romney was going to take away their birth control and their access to abortion. See Republican platform- national and state. The fear for them is that, without birth control and abortion, they might actually get pregnant and have to give birth.  That is scary not simply because of the economic burden of having a child (since, hey, they can get all kinds of cash and prizes if that happens)and laws requiring child support payments or jail time which really scare men folk, but because if that happened then everyone would know they’re sluts, and their image as daddy’s pure See Egyptian virginity tests administered by police little snowflake princess goes out the window.
The right loses the female vote primarily because so many of them still operate from a feminist world-view the real cause of the WTC bombings and a socialist, anti-family, political movement that encourages women to leave their husbands, kill their children, practice witchcraft, destroy capitalism and become lesbians---Pat Robertson's words, not mine:  Women are pure, perfect, kind, and altruistic, and the only reason they “get into trouble” is that some evil, conniving, manipulative man tricked them into sleeping with the entire football team.Your words, not ours.  No self respecting feminist and most women in general wouldn't spout such a crock of crap.
Twice. Twice? You couldn't even with Viagra times two.
And so, the Republicans believe they can win the female vote by focusing on education With what, more cuts? Shifting more public dollars to private schools?, or (as Romney did in the third debate) “peace,” or whatever feel-good idea Jesus the right can talk about without selling its soul too transparently to corporate America.
Admittedly, the desire to slut it up isn’t the only factor in the gender gap.  America has a fiscal problem primarily because women want free stuff kindergarten, libraries, police, firemen, roads...Seriously, though, we do pay taxes. We want more than 6 figure salaries for blow hard, out-of-touch, old men in posh offices on Capital Hill and endless wars  without ever having to work because we all know stay at home moms don't really work, even after popping out a quiverfull of 18+ children http://www.duggarfamily.com/.  America is over-regulated because women don’t want to have to compete in the free market. Huh? Is this "fact" from Fox news?  America has profound moral problems in part because the rationalization hamster makes it impossible for 54% of the American electorate to ever admit a moral shortcoming. Help me out here,  All I'm reading is nonsense. Goobledygook.  Can't respond to incoherent ramblings...
However, this election cycle shows that the Slut Vote is real, and Republicans lose because they discount the existence of original sin in women.Again, with the Eve myth.  It's all our fault...blah, blah,blah. Where are the men in this sexual equation?  Abortion is often called the “third rail of American politics,”after social security, medicare, Israel, and guns, and guns for Israel but in truth, the third rail is a woman’s right to slut (with cash and prizes)."

What Christian Men really think about women from the Christian Men's Defense Network

WOW! Check this out. Two days post Obama2 and the SLUT talk is back.  The author, realizing the severity of his statement has yanked open access to his comments.  Guess he doesn't want to "man up", huh?
So we have a screen shot of a cached page for posterity's sake. 
HERE'S THE CONTENT Verbatum, Unedited. Thanks to the
for this insightful view into the Republican mindset.
"I’ll be the first to admit it.  A couple weeks ago I predicted a Romney win.  I predicted this largely because he played up his alpha cred in the first debate.  But one photo-op on the Jersey Shore with Obama looking tough in a bomber jacket destroyed all that, which is yet another reason sane societies don’t let women get involved in government.
Instead, we are looking at four more years of skyrocketing debt, stifling regulation, and the only First Lady who could possibly be bitchy enough to make Hillary Clinton look feminine.
Ever since the primary debate when George Snuffleupagus seemingly out of nowhere asked Willard Mitt Romney about birth control (he’s Mormon, so I guess his position is “missionary”), we should have known how the leftists in the media and the Obama campaign (redundant, I know) intended to define the campaign. Because on radio ads, on TV, and on the web,Democrats tried to make this election about a single issue:
The right to slut.
Or more precisely, the right to slut without the responsibility of consequences.  The famous “gender gap” isn’t really a gap based on gender.  The right overwhelmingly wins older and married women.  The “gender gap” should more accurately be called the slut vote.Women make up about 54% of the electorate.  It is very hard to win without winning that segment, or at least losing it only narrowly while winning men big. While the right usually wins married women, the fact is that married women constitute an ever-decreasing share of the female population.  Women want to delay marriage as long as possible so they can “have it all,” and usually “have it all” means “have as much hot alpha sex as possible without any consequences.”  And thus, less married women and more sluts (not that these two groups are mutually exclusive, per se)And that’s where the Democrats come in.  
Contrary to common belief, the primary reason the Democrats own the black vote has nothing to do with civil rights.  The Democrats were only partially supportive of civil rights in the 60′s (with southern Democrats advocating “segregation forever”).  Lincoln was a Republican, and Republicans in the House and Senate voted for civil rights legislation in the 60s.Rather, Democrats have won the black vote because the black community is dominated by illegitimacy, and the Democrats are willing to subsidize and support that illegitimacy (as well as provide access to cheap abortions) so as to take away from sluts the consequences of their actions.  Consequently, young black people grow up on the dole and not only never realize there might be something wrong with that, but eventually come to believe that’s the way it should be.  The Democrats have won the black vote by first “empowering” single black mothers.
This is now beginning to happen in white suburbia, except unlike women in the urban black community, white suburban sluts start from a place of relative wealth and privilege (daddy’s little princess).  Thus, food stamps–and increased rewards for having illegitimate kids while on food stamps–don’t (yet) appeal to them.
So instead Obama appealed to rich white sluts by forcing someone else (the Catholic church, in this case) to pay for their birth control, and by scaring them about alleged threats to their ability to take advantage of Planned Parenthood’s services (Planned Parenthood being conveniently located in the minority part of town, of course, so as to provide anonymity to visiting white girls whose white girl friends never go over there–except to visit Planned Parenthood themselves).  This created a wedge issue in the suburban community that allowed Obama to play more strongly there than he might have if the election ended up purely about the economy or the national debt.
One thing one has to remember about women, especially slutty ones:  They usually don’t make decisions based on reason.  So all the Obama administration had to do was scare them that Mitt Romney was going to take away their birth control and their access to abortion.  The fear for them is that, without birth control and abortion, they might actually get pregnant and have to give birth.  That is scary not simply because of the economic burden of having a child (since, hey, they can get all kinds of cash and prizes if that happens), but because if that happened then everyone would know they’re sluts, and their image as daddy’s pure little snowflake princess goes out the window.
The right loses the female vote primarily because so many of them still operate from a feminist world-view:  Women are pure, perfect, kind, and altruistic, and the only reason they “get into trouble” is that some evil, conniving, manipulative man tricked them into sleeping with the entire football team.
Twice.
And so, the Republicans believe they can win the female vote by focusing on education, or (as Romney did in the third debate) “peace,” or whatever feel-good idea the right can talk about without selling its soul too transparently.
Admittedly, the desire to slut it up isn’t the only factor in the gender gap.  America has a fiscal problem primarily because women want free stuff without ever having to work.  America is over-regulated because women don’t want to have to compete in the free market.  America has profound moral problems in part because the rationalization hamster makes it impossible for 54% of the American electorate to ever admit a moral shortcoming.
However, this election cycle shows that the Slut Vote is real, and Republicans lose because they discount the existence of original sin in women.  Abortion is often called the “third rail of American politics,” but in truth, the third rail is a woman’s right to slut (with cash and prizes)."


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Something Beautiful

Went to a book sale today and bought The Rise of the Dutch Republic, 1855, Volume 1 and 2.  Inside was a beautiful card. $2.00 well spent.



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Egads

Egads!  Actually I wanted to title the post: Fuck, Fuck, Fuck!
Why don't you go to the doctor?  Because it's always bad news.  Ba-dump-da.  Seriously though, folks, what the???  Another biopsy.  Another surgeon. Again: Fuck, fuck, fuck.  When the doctor tells the nurse to bump you to the top of the list and then you have to wait until after the other surgery...fuck.

Moving at a snail's pace.

Why I'm Reading So Damned Much

So what's the deal with all the pulp mystery? Nero Wolfe, particularly.  At first I thought I'd write convalescence-that implies healing- but it's actually a waiting game.  Waiting in doctors' and hospital waiting rooms, if I can find a snippet of quiet, I pull out the pulp fiction.  An easy read.  Easy to put down; easy to pick up again.  No matter.  It keeps me distracted and when I'm up late with worry; it's an easy escape.  The way things are stretching out, I guess I'll get through all the Rex Stout we own at this rate.

Seems one test leads to another and another... Someone reassured me, "At least you're getting some answers."  But at this price??  Poked and prodded.  The worst part is the damned internet- all that fucking info to sift though.  Like the latest test, I thought was for one problem, it's actually not.  See, it's not for the problem the blood tests say, it's for one of the other problems, the one that everyone whispers, or dare not say.  But I get to find this out online, instead of from a doctor.  Why?  Conveniently, the doctor's appointments were spaced far enough apart to allow for a whole series of tests you go through after the first (and subsequent tests) test gives a bad result.  But of course, they only describe the need for the first test, not talking about the others until the negatives come in.  Then it's just a call to say they found more than they expected, in my cause, double the trouble of differing types and I'm left without answers, except those online.

I tried to joke about super powers, what with the radiation crap, but jokes just fall flat when the techs know more than you do.  And the techs who aren't supposed to say anything the doctor should say, slip up: "So how did you know something was wrong?  Could you feel it?"  My response, "How would I know what to look for?"  This they don't teach medics and EMT types, it's emergency care I know.  Stitch you up? Can do. Patch and bandage, okay.  No problem.  But this?  I have felt something was wrong for quite some time.  But damned if I had tagged this as a possibility.

The worst part is the waiting.  If I collapsed, I could go to hospital and have everything forced through at a rapid rate. Of course it may mean separate surgeries anyway since I'm dealing with specialists who don't cross paths, except where my body intersects.  As is, I'm dealing with two sets of doctors working on different parts of me, with different blood work, different tests and exams, separate/ multiple deductibles,  and now, surgery for one and waiting to hear about surgery from the other doctor.  And the surgery means more questions waiting for biopsy results from two separate areas.  As the surgeon said, "We'll be safe and just take all of it in both places."  Then why the biopsy of what you're removing, if you're taking it all?  I know, stupid question; I know the reasons. Still, it makes me feel a little upset that the surgery may not be the final solution.  And that's just the one doctor.  An appointment Monday with the other doctor will tell me if it's more tests and more wait and see, new meds and wait and see, or if we're moving towards nasty meds and radiation and/or surgery.

As my sister says, "It is what it is."  I just wish acceptance came with patience on the side and some more information.

For now it's mystery pulp because it's better than the mysteries of living and dying.

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